Choices, Choices

Every day, there are so many things to decide. What to wear, what to eat, what to say, where to go, how to act. Everyday we’re overwhelmed with choice and struggle to know what’s right or wrong, good or bad… How do we do it? Seriously, I want to know how every human being survives the day without collapsing into a heap under the sheer weight of the minutiae combined with the big, life-changing, course altering choices we have to make.

Decision fatigue is a thing. It’s a real thing (seriously, check Wikipedia). It’s a scientifically explainable thing that makes people really fucking confused. It saps willpower and eventually turns our brains to mush at the end of a long hard day of deciding things and stuff. The late Steve Jobs famously wore the same outfit every day to minimize the amount of decisions he has to start his day with. Mark Zuckerburg does it too. Personally, I can’t fathom doing such a thing (accessorising is a pastime for me) but I can totally appreciate the idea. It’s a little nap for your brain while you’re still awake.

That’s the little stuff though. The little stuff that makes the big stuff seem easy. And the big stuff… well that stuff is ACTUALLY scary. It’s the ‘what do I do with the rest of my life’ kind of questions that make you wonder why you even bother dressing – it doesn’t fucking matter because – WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING, WHO AM I, WHERE AM I GOING, WHY DO I EXIST?!

Not to be dramatic or anything but this is hard. Everything I do sets a new tone and drives a new story – sometimes for a moment and other times for many years to come. And that’s a bit terrifying.

What if I choose wrong? What if it’s too hard? What if, what if, what if!

Or… what if it’s the best thing I ever do? All I want is a crystal ball and a guarantee that I’m doing the right thing – is that too much to ask?

I need a sign. I need a plan. I need to figure out how to be alone. I need to figure out how to sleep again. I need to remember why I like myself, if I even do anymore. This living thing is hard, guys. How do we all do it?

We have to make a choice every day to keep going. We have to keep making choices, big and little. Life changing and outfit changing decisions – and everything in between.

B x